I took an unintentional hiatus from writing last month. I say unintentional because I had a strong desire to post, but whenever I sat down to do so the words would not flow. I did everything I could think of to break the writing dam, but nothing worked. So instead I opted to let that desire go and listen deeply to what was going on.
I mentioned in my March post that the Spring brings change and transformation. I’ve certainly been feeling this change and have had plenty to contemplate as life has taken a few interesting turns as of late. Add in a wedding to plan with only two months to go as well as a busy work schedule and time has been rather limited. Rather than sharing what’s come up day-to-day, I found myself needing to sit with things a bit. I think my practice is evolving right before my eyes, or maybe it’s just a different way of working things out, but I’ve spent a lot of time over the past few weeks going within to determine my next best steps. What has come out of all of this is that in order to find the answers I seek, I must sit quietly and listen.
This way of thinking is not a huge departure from how I normally operate, but lately I’ve found the chatter to be too distracting. I sometimes feel inundated by social media and well, life in general. When I’m finally done with the work day, I’ve been less inclined to jump on my computer. I’d rather be out, moving around, meeting up with friends or at the very least, catching up on some much needed reading and study. I used to think that if I did not post on my blog at least once a week, I would not be successful as a writer. But I don’t see it that way any more. Much like my realizations from teaching, I now see each post as an opportunity to be creative and say something meaningful rather than some dogged determination to prove myself to the great unknown. Yes, I still care deeply about my blog and the purpose behind it, but my perspective has shifted and I’m okay with that. In fact, I feel much more confident about what I’m doing now than every before!
So yes, some extra time has been needed to reflect and less time has been needed to share. In general I have found that situations that require one to push too hard never really work out in the end. Instead, finding a natural ebb and flow to my day makes decision making that much easier. It helps me to see the answers that are always right in front of me. It’s only when I stop talking and start listening that I find them.
Do you take time to stop and listen? How does your practice help you to tune in to your natural intuition?
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